That guilty sorta feeling

Hello you wonderfully blessed person reading this,

I don't know about you, but sometimes I look around at my life, and see all I have.
I've had a pretty awesome education,  I have a comfortable bed to sleep in, I am a first year university student who is studying what I want. The list could probably go on for years, with all the 'stuff' and opportunities I have been given.

Then, instead of feeling an  immense joy, I feel guilt. Guilty that I've been given, freely, all these things. I don't deserve it, I think to myself. Why am I blessed enough to be given these chances to do things, so many other people don't have!?

These thoughts rattle around in my brain and I end up not appreciating what I have because I feel too guilty to.

That feeling has been crushing me a bit lately,  and I want to tell you how I get out of that rut.

My thoughts are, yes, I am blessed. Really, I want for nothing. I have gifts, talents,  opportunities and much more. These are things I have been given to me, now I need to use these gifts, and opportunities to give back. I need to use them in a constructive way that will ultimately end up helping someone else at some point.

This means, I try not to waste my time, and full my day with learning, studying,  and good use of the hours I've been given.  I need to take advantage and fully appreciate the life I have been given. I need to not take for granted the diverse deck of cards I've been delt.
Then I feel like I'm not wasting my gifts or opportunities.

I don't know if anyone else ever feels like this, but for me, if I have a appreciative attitude towards my life, I become a happier person.

X Andrea Claire